”If you ever find yourself in the wrong story, leave.”
– Mo Willems
I strongly believe that life works in mysterious ways. Nevertheless I like to think that life always works for us, not against us. For example it’s very common to settle in different areas of life; to settle in a job you hate, you procrastinate your biggest dreams, or you might simply not feel at ”home” in your environment anymore.
We usually settle in life because it’s safe. The unknown scares us and we’re too afraid of what might happen if we actually start following our dreams. Failure scares the hell out of us. Fear definitely blocks us from growing, blocks us from living the life we dream of.
However, if we’re too ignorant, and too afraid to do anything, life will sooner or later step in and make us do something, making change inevitable. This is what happened me today.
The past months I’ve been thinking about maybe moving back to my home country. It’s not that I don’t feel at home here in Sweden, but the thought of me living somewhere else has been popping up in my head quite often lately. Most probably I’m in need of a change of scenery – and apparently life thinks I’m in desperate need of a change of scenery.
Today I found out that my landlord has to sell the apartment in which I’ve been living the past seven years, meaning I need to move out, preferably before summer. Deep down I know I need a change, but I would of course prefer to be the one ”in charge” of this change.
”Told you so”
– sincerely your intuition.
I feel a little stressed at the moment, even though I know that eventually everything will work out. Everything happens for a reason. I do love my tiny and old, but cosy apartment. In which I’ve been spending many lovely years filled with love, laughter, tears, achievements and growth. And to know that I won’t be able to spend another summer here makes me very sad. And scared. At this very moment I have no idea were I’ll be in three to four months. But what I do know is that I have to embrace change. Cause it cannot be avoided anymore.
We definitely can’t always control what happens in our life, but we can control how we react.
”in the end, she became
more than what she expected.
she became the journey,
and like all journeys,
she did not end,
she just simply changed directions
and kept going.”
– r.m. drake